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And I said in my subconscious \u201cI\u2019ve reached my breaking point.\u201d I began to make cornbread and cracked these two eggs and I heard \u201cNow I can use you!\u201d You see an egg can\u2019t be used until it\u2019s broken. - I immediately found joy in the breaking!! \ud83d\ude4c\ud83c\udffe\ud83d\ude4c\ud83c\udffe. Not everyone will understand this but to those who do be encouraged.\u2611\ufe0fYes you\u2019re at your breaking point!\u2611\ufe0fYes you are broken!But that\u2019s ok! You are ready to be used! \ud83d\udc9c\u201d - \ud83d\udc9a\ud83d\udc99 The night of April 18th the boy across the hall received his miracle heart. The amount of emotions that flooded my heart were overwhelming. I was filled with so much joy yet at the same time I weeped harder than I ever had. It wasn\u2019t why God. It was truly a \u201cGod, I\u2019m tired. God, I can\u2019t handle anymore days away from my family. My marriage is hanging on by threads. The amount of stress that has filled our lives is suffocating. Are my children going to resent each other? How will they ever understand that we are trying so hard to be the best parents to each of them yet we are drowning.\u201d The thoughts raced. - The song Nothing Else by Cody Carnes repeatedly played in my head. Because when you are coming up on 200 days admitted and 156 days listed for a new heart you are exhausted. You start going through the motions. I told my friends a week before that I can\u2019t do anything except listen to worship music. I can\u2019t focus. I can\u2019t read. I haven\u2019t opened my Bible in a long time. One of them said, \u201cIn Jesus is where you find the ability to do those things.\u201d like How did I forget that Jesus is enough? I don\u2019t need blessings. He doesn\u2019t owe me anything. He has given me everything I need. - I spent the day Friday listening to sermons that I\u2019ve missed. Pastor Steve said, \u201dHow much do you need to know to teach someone else about the Bible? You don\u2019t need to know a lot, Just slightly more than them. Tell them what Jesus has done for you.\u201d I struggled with this for so long. I can\u2019t recite many verses out of memory. I can\u2019t even tell you the name of every book in the Bible. I can\u2019t teach someone about Jesus. What if I\u2019m too pushy and push people away from him instead of drawing them closer.. Then he said, \u201cPeople all around us are drowning and they don\u2019t even know that Jesus loves them.\u201d The least I can do is tell someone that Jesus loves them like I tell my children every day. And someone who doesn\u2019t even feed love will know there is a God that loves them. - The song \u201cDon\u2019t give up on me by Brandon Lake\u201d played in my head. - \ud83c\udfb6 You ain't seen what I promised. Child, we're just getting started. I'll be your way, When there's no way out. And I'll be your strength. When your strength runs out. And if you walk into the fire. I'll be right there in the flames. I wouldn't have it any other way. \u2018Cause loving you is easy. Don\u2019t give up on me. Don\u2019t give up on me.\u2018Cause when the night's at its darkest. That's when the light hits the hardest. Don't you give up on me. \ud83c\udfb5 - It was time for me to step out of my own way. To let God lead again. - April 20th, 9:11 am I received the call and Ellen said, \u201dLedger is getting his new heart.\u201d Wait, what?? No. Even though you are filled with excitement you are filled with an immense about of grief. It feels surreal. You\u2019re thankful for someone having such great strength to make such a brave decision and give life to someone else through a tragic time. You pray that they find comfort in Jesus. You thank God for them. - Dr. Tan closed his chest around 3 am and he made his way to his room in the PICU. Ledger is doing well overall. It will be up and down for a few days. Ledger's heart is being paced by a pacer right now which is normal. When Lane and I went to see Ledger around 6, He managed to mouth tablet while intubated. \ud83e\udd23 but we opted to watch movies instead. He shook his head that he wanted to watch Willie Wonka. Slightly after this, Ledger developed malignant hypothermia this is a reaction to anesthesia and even though he has never had a reaction before it can happened randomly. He spiked a extremely high fever and his heart rate elevated. They had to increase sedation meds and give him a paralytic. His feistiness wasn\u2019t helping his temperature. - Before Lane and I went to a hotel, Ledger was off a lot of medications including the paralytic and they were able to start him on some of his anti-rejection medications. These can also cause fevers so they will monitor that very closely. \ud83d\udc9a\ud83d\udc99 - I say all of this to say, God is never late. His timing is always perfect.\" \/>\n<meta name=\"robots\" content=\"index, follow, max-snippet:-1, max-image-preview:large, max-video-preview:-1\" \/>\n<link rel=\"canonical\" href=\"https:\/\/cota.org\/cotaforledgerstrong\/2024\/04\/23\/ledger-received-his-miracle-heart-\u2764\ufe0f\/\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:locale\" content=\"en_US\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:type\" content=\"article\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:title\" content=\"Ledger received his miracle heart \u2764\ufe0f\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:description\" content=\"I shared a post that said\u2014 \u201cI was thinking about life. And I said in my subconscious \u201cI\u2019ve reached my breaking point.\u201d I began to make cornbread and cracked these two eggs and I heard \u201cNow I can use you!\u201d You see an egg can\u2019t be used until it\u2019s broken. - I immediately found joy in the breaking!! \ud83d\ude4c\ud83c\udffe\ud83d\ude4c\ud83c\udffe. Not everyone will understand this but to those who do be encouraged.\u2611\ufe0fYes you\u2019re at your breaking point!\u2611\ufe0fYes you are broken!But that\u2019s ok! You are ready to be used! \ud83d\udc9c\u201d - \ud83d\udc9a\ud83d\udc99 The night of April 18th the boy across the hall received his miracle heart. The amount of emotions that flooded my heart were overwhelming. I was filled with so much joy yet at the same time I weeped harder than I ever had. It wasn\u2019t why God. It was truly a \u201cGod, I\u2019m tired. God, I can\u2019t handle anymore days away from my family. My marriage is hanging on by threads. The amount of stress that has filled our lives is suffocating. Are my children going to resent each other? How will they ever understand that we are trying so hard to be the best parents to each of them yet we are drowning.\u201d The thoughts raced. - The song Nothing Else by Cody Carnes repeatedly played in my head. Because when you are coming up on 200 days admitted and 156 days listed for a new heart you are exhausted. You start going through the motions. I told my friends a week before that I can\u2019t do anything except listen to worship music. I can\u2019t focus. I can\u2019t read. I haven\u2019t opened my Bible in a long time. One of them said, \u201cIn Jesus is where you find the ability to do those things.\u201d like How did I forget that Jesus is enough? I don\u2019t need blessings. He doesn\u2019t owe me anything. He has given me everything I need. - I spent the day Friday listening to sermons that I\u2019ve missed. Pastor Steve said, \u201dHow much do you need to know to teach someone else about the Bible? You don\u2019t need to know a lot, Just slightly more than them. Tell them what Jesus has done for you.\u201d I struggled with this for so long. I can\u2019t recite many verses out of memory. I can\u2019t even tell you the name of every book in the Bible. I can\u2019t teach someone about Jesus. What if I\u2019m too pushy and push people away from him instead of drawing them closer.. Then he said, \u201cPeople all around us are drowning and they don\u2019t even know that Jesus loves them.\u201d The least I can do is tell someone that Jesus loves them like I tell my children every day. And someone who doesn\u2019t even feed love will know there is a God that loves them. - The song \u201cDon\u2019t give up on me by Brandon Lake\u201d played in my head. - \ud83c\udfb6 You ain't seen what I promised. Child, we're just getting started. I'll be your way, When there's no way out. And I'll be your strength. When your strength runs out. And if you walk into the fire. I'll be right there in the flames. I wouldn't have it any other way. \u2018Cause loving you is easy. Don\u2019t give up on me. Don\u2019t give up on me.\u2018Cause when the night's at its darkest. That's when the light hits the hardest. Don't you give up on me. \ud83c\udfb5 - It was time for me to step out of my own way. To let God lead again. - April 20th, 9:11 am I received the call and Ellen said, \u201dLedger is getting his new heart.\u201d Wait, what?? No. Even though you are filled with excitement you are filled with an immense about of grief. It feels surreal. You\u2019re thankful for someone having such great strength to make such a brave decision and give life to someone else through a tragic time. You pray that they find comfort in Jesus. You thank God for them. - Dr. Tan closed his chest around 3 am and he made his way to his room in the PICU. Ledger is doing well overall. It will be up and down for a few days. Ledger's heart is being paced by a pacer right now which is normal. When Lane and I went to see Ledger around 6, He managed to mouth tablet while intubated. \ud83e\udd23 but we opted to watch movies instead. He shook his head that he wanted to watch Willie Wonka. Slightly after this, Ledger developed malignant hypothermia this is a reaction to anesthesia and even though he has never had a reaction before it can happened randomly. He spiked a extremely high fever and his heart rate elevated. They had to increase sedation meds and give him a paralytic. His feistiness wasn\u2019t helping his temperature. - Before Lane and I went to a hotel, Ledger was off a lot of medications including the paralytic and they were able to start him on some of his anti-rejection medications. These can also cause fevers so they will monitor that very closely. \ud83d\udc9a\ud83d\udc99 - I say all of this to say, God is never late. His timing is always perfect.\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:url\" content=\"https:\/\/cota.org\/cotaforledgerstrong\/2024\/04\/23\/ledger-received-his-miracle-heart-\u2764\ufe0f\/\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:site_name\" content=\"COTA for Ledger Strong\" \/>\n<meta property=\"article:published_time\" content=\"2024-04-23T01:55:43+00:00\" \/>\n<meta property=\"article:modified_time\" content=\"2024-04-23T01:55:45+00:00\" \/>\n<meta name=\"author\" content=\"liztaylor\" \/>\n<meta name=\"twitter:card\" content=\"summary_large_image\" \/>\n<meta name=\"twitter:label1\" content=\"Written by\" \/>\n\t<meta name=\"twitter:data1\" content=\"liztaylor\" \/>\n<script type=\"application\/ld+json\" class=\"yoast-schema-graph\">{\"@context\":\"https:\/\/schema.org\",\"@graph\":[{\"@type\":\"WebPage\",\"@id\":\"https:\/\/cota.org\/cotaforledgerstrong\/2024\/04\/23\/ledger-received-his-miracle-heart-%e2%9d%a4%ef%b8%8f\/\",\"url\":\"https:\/\/cota.org\/cotaforledgerstrong\/2024\/04\/23\/ledger-received-his-miracle-heart-%e2%9d%a4%ef%b8%8f\/\",\"name\":\"Ledger received his miracle heart \u2764\ufe0f - COTA for Ledger Strong\",\"isPartOf\":{\"@id\":\"https:\/\/cota.org\/cotaforledgerstrong\/#website\"},\"datePublished\":\"2024-04-23T01:55:43+00:00\",\"dateModified\":\"2024-04-23T01:55:45+00:00\",\"author\":{\"@id\":\"https:\/\/cota.org\/cotaforledgerstrong\/#\/schema\/person\/c70d479198b9a3e70ddd5a56a1505d46\"},\"description\":\"I shared a post that said\u2014 \u201cI was thinking about life. 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The amount of stress that has filled our lives is suffocating. Are my children going to resent each other? How will they ever understand that we are trying so hard to be the best parents to each of them yet we are drowning.\u201d The thoughts raced. - The song Nothing Else by Cody Carnes repeatedly played in my head. Because when you are coming up on 200 days admitted and 156 days listed for a new heart you are exhausted. You start going through the motions. I told my friends a week before that I can\u2019t do anything except listen to worship music. I can\u2019t focus. I can\u2019t read. I haven\u2019t opened my Bible in a long time. One of them said, \u201cIn Jesus is where you find the ability to do those things.\u201d like How did I forget that Jesus is enough? I don\u2019t need blessings. He doesn\u2019t owe me anything. He has given me everything I need. - I spent the day Friday listening to sermons that I\u2019ve missed. 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And I said in my subconscious \u201cI\u2019ve reached my breaking point.\u201d I began to make cornbread and cracked these two eggs and I heard \u201cNow I can use you!\u201d You see an egg can\u2019t be used until it\u2019s broken. - I immediately found joy in the breaking!! \ud83d\ude4c\ud83c\udffe\ud83d\ude4c\ud83c\udffe. Not everyone will understand this but to those who do be encouraged.\u2611\ufe0fYes you\u2019re at your breaking point!\u2611\ufe0fYes you are broken!But that\u2019s ok! You are ready to be used! \ud83d\udc9c\u201d - \ud83d\udc9a\ud83d\udc99 The night of April 18th the boy across the hall received his miracle heart. The amount of emotions that flooded my heart were overwhelming. I was filled with so much joy yet at the same time I weeped harder than I ever had. It wasn\u2019t why God. It was truly a \u201cGod, I\u2019m tired. God, I can\u2019t handle anymore days away from my family. My marriage is hanging on by threads. The amount of stress that has filled our lives is suffocating. Are my children going to resent each other? How will they ever understand that we are trying so hard to be the best parents to each of them yet we are drowning.\u201d The thoughts raced. - The song Nothing Else by Cody Carnes repeatedly played in my head. Because when you are coming up on 200 days admitted and 156 days listed for a new heart you are exhausted. You start going through the motions. I told my friends a week before that I can\u2019t do anything except listen to worship music. I can\u2019t focus. I can\u2019t read. I haven\u2019t opened my Bible in a long time. One of them said, \u201cIn Jesus is where you find the ability to do those things.\u201d like How did I forget that Jesus is enough? I don\u2019t need blessings. He doesn\u2019t owe me anything. He has given me everything I need. - I spent the day Friday listening to sermons that I\u2019ve missed. Pastor Steve said, \u201dHow much do you need to know to teach someone else about the Bible? You don\u2019t need to know a lot, Just slightly more than them. Tell them what Jesus has done for you.\u201d I struggled with this for so long. I can\u2019t recite many verses out of memory. I can\u2019t even tell you the name of every book in the Bible. I can\u2019t teach someone about Jesus. What if I\u2019m too pushy and push people away from him instead of drawing them closer.. Then he said, \u201cPeople all around us are drowning and they don\u2019t even know that Jesus loves them.\u201d The least I can do is tell someone that Jesus loves them like I tell my children every day. And someone who doesn\u2019t even feed love will know there is a God that loves them. - The song \u201cDon\u2019t give up on me by Brandon Lake\u201d played in my head. - \ud83c\udfb6 You ain't seen what I promised. Child, we're just getting started. I'll be your way, When there's no way out. 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It will be up and down for a few days. Ledger's heart is being paced by a pacer right now which is normal. When Lane and I went to see Ledger around 6, He managed to mouth tablet while intubated. \ud83e\udd23 but we opted to watch movies instead. He shook his head that he wanted to watch Willie Wonka. Slightly after this, Ledger developed malignant hypothermia this is a reaction to anesthesia and even though he has never had a reaction before it can happened randomly. He spiked a extremely high fever and his heart rate elevated. They had to increase sedation meds and give him a paralytic. His feistiness wasn\u2019t helping his temperature. - Before Lane and I went to a hotel, Ledger was off a lot of medications including the paralytic and they were able to start him on some of his anti-rejection medications. These can also cause fevers so they will monitor that very closely. \ud83d\udc9a\ud83d\udc99 - I say all of this to say, God is never late. 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You are ready to be used! \ud83d\udc9c\u201d - \ud83d\udc9a\ud83d\udc99 The night of April 18th the boy across the hall received his miracle heart. The amount of emotions that flooded my heart were overwhelming. I was filled with so much joy yet at the same time I weeped harder than I ever had. It wasn\u2019t why God. It was truly a \u201cGod, I\u2019m tired. God, I can\u2019t handle anymore days away from my family. My marriage is hanging on by threads. The amount of stress that has filled our lives is suffocating. Are my children going to resent each other? How will they ever understand that we are trying so hard to be the best parents to each of them yet we are drowning.\u201d The thoughts raced. - The song Nothing Else by Cody Carnes repeatedly played in my head. Because when you are coming up on 200 days admitted and 156 days listed for a new heart you are exhausted. You start going through the motions. I told my friends a week before that I can\u2019t do anything except listen to worship music. I can\u2019t focus. I can\u2019t read. I haven\u2019t opened my Bible in a long time. One of them said, \u201cIn Jesus is where you find the ability to do those things.\u201d like How did I forget that Jesus is enough? I don\u2019t need blessings. He doesn\u2019t owe me anything. He has given me everything I need. - I spent the day Friday listening to sermons that I\u2019ve missed. Pastor Steve said, \u201dHow much do you need to know to teach someone else about the Bible? You don\u2019t need to know a lot, Just slightly more than them. Tell them what Jesus has done for you.\u201d I struggled with this for so long. I can\u2019t recite many verses out of memory. I can\u2019t even tell you the name of every book in the Bible. I can\u2019t teach someone about Jesus. What if I\u2019m too pushy and push people away from him instead of drawing them closer.. Then he said, \u201cPeople all around us are drowning and they don\u2019t even know that Jesus loves them.\u201d The least I can do is tell someone that Jesus loves them like I tell my children every day. And someone who doesn\u2019t even feed love will know there is a God that loves them. - The song \u201cDon\u2019t give up on me by Brandon Lake\u201d played in my head. - \ud83c\udfb6 You ain't seen what I promised. Child, we're just getting started. I'll be your way, When there's no way out. And I'll be your strength. When your strength runs out. And if you walk into the fire. I'll be right there in the flames. I wouldn't have it any other way. \u2018Cause loving you is easy. Don\u2019t give up on me. Don\u2019t give up on me.\u2018Cause when the night's at its darkest. That's when the light hits the hardest. Don't you give up on me. \ud83c\udfb5 - It was time for me to step out of my own way. To let God lead again. - April 20th, 9:11 am I received the call and Ellen said, \u201dLedger is getting his new heart.\u201d Wait, what?? No. Even though you are filled with excitement you are filled with an immense about of grief. It feels surreal. You\u2019re thankful for someone having such great strength to make such a brave decision and give life to someone else through a tragic time. You pray that they find comfort in Jesus. You thank God for them. - Dr. Tan closed his chest around 3 am and he made his way to his room in the PICU. Ledger is doing well overall. It will be up and down for a few days. Ledger's heart is being paced by a pacer right now which is normal. When Lane and I went to see Ledger around 6, He managed to mouth tablet while intubated. \ud83e\udd23 but we opted to watch movies instead. He shook his head that he wanted to watch Willie Wonka. Slightly after this, Ledger developed malignant hypothermia this is a reaction to anesthesia and even though he has never had a reaction before it can happened randomly. He spiked a extremely high fever and his heart rate elevated. They had to increase sedation meds and give him a paralytic. His feistiness wasn\u2019t helping his temperature. - Before Lane and I went to a hotel, Ledger was off a lot of medications including the paralytic and they were able to start him on some of his anti-rejection medications. These can also cause fevers so they will monitor that very closely. \ud83d\udc9a\ud83d\udc99 - I say all of this to say, God is never late. 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And I said in my subconscious \u201cI\u2019ve reached my breaking point.\u201d I began to make cornbread and cracked these two eggs and I heard \u201cNow I can use you!\u201d You see an egg can\u2019t be used until it\u2019s broken. - I immediately found joy in the breaking!! \ud83d\ude4c\ud83c\udffe\ud83d\ude4c\ud83c\udffe. Not everyone will understand this but to those who do be encouraged.\u2611\ufe0fYes you\u2019re at your breaking point!\u2611\ufe0fYes you are broken!But that\u2019s ok! You are ready to be used! \ud83d\udc9c\u201d - \ud83d\udc9a\ud83d\udc99 The night of April 18th the boy across the hall received his miracle heart. The amount of emotions that flooded my heart were overwhelming. I was filled with so much joy yet at the same time I weeped harder than I ever had. It wasn\u2019t why God. It was truly a \u201cGod, I\u2019m tired. God, I can\u2019t handle anymore days away from my family. My marriage is hanging on by threads. The amount of stress that has filled our lives is suffocating. Are my children going to resent each other? How will they ever understand that we are trying so hard to be the best parents to each of them yet we are drowning.\u201d The thoughts raced. - The song Nothing Else by Cody Carnes repeatedly played in my head. Because when you are coming up on 200 days admitted and 156 days listed for a new heart you are exhausted. You start going through the motions. I told my friends a week before that I can\u2019t do anything except listen to worship music. I can\u2019t focus. I can\u2019t read. I haven\u2019t opened my Bible in a long time. One of them said, \u201cIn Jesus is where you find the ability to do those things.\u201d like How did I forget that Jesus is enough? I don\u2019t need blessings. He doesn\u2019t owe me anything. He has given me everything I need. - I spent the day Friday listening to sermons that I\u2019ve missed. Pastor Steve said, \u201dHow much do you need to know to teach someone else about the Bible? You don\u2019t need to know a lot, Just slightly more than them. Tell them what Jesus has done for you.\u201d I struggled with this for so long. I can\u2019t recite many verses out of memory. I can\u2019t even tell you the name of every book in the Bible. I can\u2019t teach someone about Jesus. What if I\u2019m too pushy and push people away from him instead of drawing them closer.. Then he said, \u201cPeople all around us are drowning and they don\u2019t even know that Jesus loves them.\u201d The least I can do is tell someone that Jesus loves them like I tell my children every day. And someone who doesn\u2019t even feed love will know there is a God that loves them. - The song \u201cDon\u2019t give up on me by Brandon Lake\u201d played in my head. - \ud83c\udfb6 You ain't seen what I promised. Child, we're just getting started. I'll be your way, When there's no way out. 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It will be up and down for a few days. Ledger's heart is being paced by a pacer right now which is normal. When Lane and I went to see Ledger around 6, He managed to mouth tablet while intubated. \ud83e\udd23 but we opted to watch movies instead. He shook his head that he wanted to watch Willie Wonka. Slightly after this, Ledger developed malignant hypothermia this is a reaction to anesthesia and even though he has never had a reaction before it can happened randomly. He spiked a extremely high fever and his heart rate elevated. They had to increase sedation meds and give him a paralytic. His feistiness wasn\u2019t helping his temperature. - Before Lane and I went to a hotel, Ledger was off a lot of medications including the paralytic and they were able to start him on some of his anti-rejection medications. These can also cause fevers so they will monitor that very closely. \ud83d\udc9a\ud83d\udc99 - I say all of this to say, God is never late. 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