I Don't Want to Miss It

Days now have extra-special meaning. I am learning to live in the moment. I’m really there in mind, body, and spirit for my kids, husband, other family members, and friends. I’m not just physically in the same room…I am “in”volved, “in”gaged, and fully “in”vested. My kids are growing up fast. They are now 11, 9, 6, 5, and almost 3. Seems like only yesterday that our oldest, Shayli, was born.

It saddens me to think all I’ve missed due to being stressed out, worried about the future…letting my “Type A all the way” tendencies control every facet of my life. I now live differently. I don’t want to miss anymore of the life God has for me.




Even though most of us experience a mix of crazy good and crazy bad, the key to balancing all that a day brings is to claim Psalms 46:10 every morning…“Be still and know that I am God.”

Saying this verse out loud soothes my whipped body and reminds me that I am not in control. In my previous life, I was wrapped up in the “doing” side of things. Now, I’m coming into the “being” and realizing more and more why this is God’s best for His children.

Being a good mom…taking time to listen to my children, spending time bedside to pray, share, and watch them drift off to sleep, letting the dishes sit half-washed in the sink while I make the choice to sit on the couch and watch a television show, pulling myself out of the office and away from view of a screen (computer, iPod, iPhone, etc.) to have face-time for fun, laughter, and play!

Being a devoted wife…making couple time a priority, respecting the amazing gift God has given me in a spouse, admiring his leadership of the family, and thanking him for being a hard worker to provide for our needs.

This new focus has caused me to realign my priorities and treat each day as a special gift to be cherished.
And to think, God used a special baby named Shafer to teach me all of this.
Shafer will turn three on October 15th. It’s hard to believe all that has transpired since the conversation with our doctor when he was three-weeks old and barely hanging on for life—“It might be in the best interest of the family to just keep him comfortable…we have an excellent facility to care for him.”
While we have an exceptional medical team, had it not been for the hope and healing provided by the Great Physician, we would not be enjoying the beauty of Shafer’s life today. I am still amazed that my left kidney now resides in Shafer’s tiny body, and that God in His amazing love for us, sometimes allows organs to be shared. Modern day miracles do happen.
We are only one example, yet the Lord has used this to encourage many. Shafer reminds me daily to savor every kiss, every smile, every laugh, every trip to the potty, and even the hard things…every trip to clinic, every surgery, every bolus, every dose of medicine, and every hookup to the feeding tube. Yes, there is beauty on the difficult side roads of life.
All of us have a story. While our stories may not be on the nonfiction bestseller list, we are playing out the details in our everyday lives. Your plot might not be health issues, but broken relationships, financial difficulties, job concerns, or a number of other crisis situations.
And in the midst of your struggles, I want to encourage you that this season of trial and testing comes only to make your faith stronger. James 1:2-4 states “Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.”
Don’t let the enemy derail you. He comes only to steal your joy and strip you of all God wants to present you with on your Divine walk with Him. Take in a sunrise…look for rainbows…bask in His creation and be overwhelmed by it. Hug your kids tighter tonight as you tuck them in bed instead of sending them to bed.
Take a special moment to look your spouse in the eyes and tell him or her what a difference they have made in your life. Call or personally sit your parents down (and in-laws if you’re really brave) and thank them for their unconditional love and care for you and your family.
Make it your goal each day to do a random act of kindness for someone who can never repay you.
Life is never easy. As Bethany Hamilton said in the movie Soul Surfer, “I don’t need easy…I just need possible.” I couldn’t agree more. I want to be found faithful as a beloved servant of the Lord regardless of the circumstances in which I find myself.

And no matter how dark the night, we can rest in the promise that “all things are possible to him who believes” (Mark 9:23).

Now that’s a life I don’t want to miss!
All my love,
Shafer’s Mommy


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