A heart for Jaxon is what we need.

It’s so surreal to have our family on the receiving side of donation. Years ago, we were on the donating side with our nephew Rylan. When April Sheard-Micklonis and Mike made that decision, we were all in shock not only for the events leading up to their decision, but also the decision itself. We had never personally been in that position.

We were sitting together, and it was silent. Anyone who knows us knows that NEVER happens. I looked around and said, “as sad as we all are right now, some family is jumping for joy that Rylan lived and is giving them this”. We all shook our heads and knew then that without a doubt April & Mike made the greatest decision for their son, our Rylan Micklonis.

This time, I’m the mom instead of the Aunt. It’s a completely different feeling. I have prayed more in the past 3-4 weeks than I think I have my entire life. I often sit and think, am i praying for my son to live and someone else’s to die when i ask God to give him a new heart. As much as I don’t want to see it like this, when it all boils down to it, that’s what will happen should he get a transplant.

I feel guilty asking God to answer my prayers while not answering some other mother’s. In my everyday life, I feel I try not to be a selfish person. I try to not only myself to be an unselfish person but strive to have my kids be the same way.

But right now, I choose to be selfish. I choose to pray that my son is left here on earth with us. I pray that God gives him the chance to grow up, be a teenager, fall in love… all the things that he talks about how his life will be when he’s older. I choose to beg everyone to continue to pray for these things as well for our Jaxon. I also pray that once he is able to receive a heart that the donor family know how grateful we truly are for their loved one to have lived and given us such a wonderful gift.

Please, please continue to pray for our Jaxon.

Love, Niki and Adam

#aheartforjaxon