We made it, y’all!
December! It came way too quickly but also not quick enough at all. I feel like 2022 has truly been the longest year yet. In September I was told how I was in chronic rejection again, and since then my life has been, “be careful we can’t get any infections or no treatment!” “oh no you have pneumonia again? well gotta push back treatment” “you have another UTI? Okay push back treatment”. All up until 2 weeks ago when God said “Alright that’s enough, let’s get this overwith before she goes any crazier. And so that’s exactly what happened! I truly do think of it as God just giving me some relief. I was so stressed on “oh can I push it back this much?” “can you give me some more time for this?” “oh no what if this is waiting too long??” So He was like okay clam down. Great now you did it! It’s overwith and I can wait 4 whole weeks of less stressin’ and more enjoying the holidays. Or so I thought. Friday I decided it would be fun to test positive for Covid. It has definitely been tryna take me out, but I’m hoping i’ll be one and done by my birthday this upcoming Friday! it’s been a long time coming, and truly, i’m not excited for my birthday. The past probably 9-10 years Birthday’s have just been a constant reminder of “Great. now let’s do this all over again, and again, and again. I know I need to be more positive about God giving me another year of living and life with family but life IS HARD!! It’s so hard!! And I’ve learned that’s okay to admit!! Life is HARD!!! So as I have my last week of being 23 and trying to enjoy it, I hope y’all do to! This week try to think of the good things (saying this for myself too). We’re coming up on a new year, and trust me I will not be saying “this is gonna be our year!!” I’ve tried that, doesn’t always work that way. But we can hope for some good things to come! Doesn’t mean it has to be the most amazing year yet, but if we try to do a few goals we set then it can at least be an alright one! So the positives for this week are: I finished a round of chemo, a round of plasmapheresis, and a round of IVIG, and now i get a four week break! Or maybe just a couple weeks cause of this lovely covid. But I did it! So look back on the amazing stuff you accomplished this year. Bad and good! Maybe you got out of a bad situation, or maybe you’re trying to fix something in your life to make a better one. But for now my prayer request is to get rid of this Covid, try to stay away from more pneumonia, have my birthday and try to have fun, and just live life to the fullest. I also wanna thank everyone who has donated to me this year! Thank you so much! you truly don’t understand how helpful it has been. When I’m in the hospital it helps us with gas back and forth, and food while im in the hospital cause I’m allergic to everything on the planet, it helps us get groceries when we get home from being in the hospital for weeks at a time so I can finally feed Greyson and I. And it helps us just not stress as much. So thank you. Thank you for the prayers as well cause I feel each and every one of them and they truly keep me going and are the reason why I am here today. And thank you for keeping up with my updates, I sometimes feel like no one wants to hear about it cause when I’m depressed I sure don’t wanna hear about it, but y’all are so great about letting me know you wanna hear what’s going on, and pray for me, and so much more. So thanks again, y’all! And be sure to enjoy the holiday season!!