Bells and I have been having some pretty deep conversations lately. Today, Ella told me that she is finally happy and really likes the person she is now. She felt extra good today after a haircut and manicure!!
Ella also shared with me that she is struggling with survivors guilt. She is happy to be alive but she knows that her life saving surgery meant that someone else died. This reality is hard for anyone, especially a 13 year old.
I told her that I feel the same way sometimes. I know that my happiness means another mother is in pain. Not a day goes by without me thinking about the family who gave the ultimate gift to us.
Ella’s body is healing and now we focus on her mind and her soul.
I am so thankful for the support of most of our family and so many of our friends who have helped and supported us through this journey.