The morning of Dec.03,2019 was peaceful. I woke up, prepared Cash (Yosef’s older brother) for school and prepared breakfast. Yosef was still sleeping in the same room with his dad Sky. My husband was off from work. I woke him up so he could bring Cash to school and I picked up Yosef from his crib and went downstairs. Yosef did not show signs of distress, although we had him checked by his Doctor and he was diagnosed with RSV and mild dehydration, he was playful like any normal baby. No more fever that day so I was thankful, everything looks great. We already had a plan to buy our first Christmas tree since we just bought our house on October that same year. We went out bought some stuff and picked up Cash from school at 3pm. During that time, Yosef was already crying. He was inconsolable, so I decided to stay beside him in the car to comfort him. As we were heading to pick up the tree, I looked at him closely and saw his lips turning blue. I immediately told my husband to drive to the nearest doctor’s clinic. From there on, everything happened so quickly. I don’t remember a lot of things that night because it all seemed untrue to me.

     I was shaking, emotionally unstable. How can my son be in the hospital bed right now? With an enlarged heart and is on a life support? I came in the hospital with him where he was airlifted and saw everything beside the hospital bed. I could not even bear to listen to what the doctors were saying because it was all bad news. Our family and churchmates were there, praying and giving my husband and I encouragement and support. And with God’s grace, Yosef made it through that night…and the next night and the next. Right now, Feb.08, 2020 he is sleeping soundly in his hospital bed, cuddling his comfort blanket with his bedtime lullaby turned on and Berlin heart still pumping. It may looked like a tragic turned of event, but it was also a beautiful reminder that God is always with us on this journey. He is listening to our prayers. We may turn our heads away sometimes and follow our own desires instead of His plans, but He redirects us back to Him to show us how much He loves us. I have lifted everything up to Him and in Him I found comfort and peace.